http://sk8maiko.blog.friendster.com/ there its just showed up =) that blog would be more detailed and more up-to-date than this blog because its my private profile (*^U^)v
i have been updating my blog on my other account, for quite sometime today..
seems that friendster is not working properly cause everytime i try to write here, my other blog shows up.. (-_-) and just a while ago i tried to see if my other blog worked, turns out its not there anymore..its like it went into a black hole or something.. (@_@) can’t find it anymore.. but i swear to god i really saved my entries.. chikusho.. mata kaku no kayo? anyway, mata kaze hichatta yo.. koe ga hen, hanamizu ga ooi.. lol..
and about the snatching thing,,my mum was cool about it.. she said she was just glad im okay.. =)
i miss my *chi* (T^T)
my handbag have been snatched today (oct 31, 2008 9pm at marville 2 near ynares) containing my wallet with atm and drivers license by a semi bald guy (around 24 years old a little bit fat) riding a motorcycle. whoever you are, PLEASE, i need the license.
ive always hated rain.. i cant skate, cant go out without getting wet.. (@_@) makes everything seem hassle (-_-)
i was actually planning to go to a halloween party set up by my friends later, and after that we’ll go straight to my friends birthday bash. i hope this rain stops later~~
(i wonder what costume i should wear) (*^u^)v
he picked me up and we went to mini stop a while ago.. we had our daily dose of ice cream which we both love.. XD
our relationship now is good. i hope it’ll last =)
i know this is crazy, well. so much for loving someone.. we got back together again.. for the n’th time XD last night i had a “date” with someone from HCP (honda club philippines) unfortunately, there was an emergency.. (wont elaborate on that) then, after that i came over my “x” house. he got mad when he found out that i had a date..i was talking to his sister. and she was like, “he has no right to make stop with what you’re doing because you’re no longer together” “if you really want to forget and move on, you shouldn’t come that often anymore” those words made sens
e, but i just couldn’t take it all up.. then we talked. this time more calmly.. he said he actually wanted me back..i refused to take him back at first.. he was just hugging me, telling me he will never forget about me. he poured out all the things he kept in his heart.. he said thank you, and sorry for
every bad thing he’s done..
i asked him. if i would take you back, would you never do those things that would hurt me again? the
n thats it. we kissed and made up. i hope this time we’ll make things right. =)
this would be a great timing for me to go back to japan. im not going to study next sem but i would try to look for a part time job. ill probably stay there for a while, untill i forget about “him” *wishful thinking on my part i know* XD
even until now, we still see each other.. we’re like a couple but we’re actually not. and i hate it. he’s happy we’re like this because we dont fight.. but it sucks not being able to be his “only one” i want him only for myself. i know im being uber selfish, but thats just the way i love. (well frankly i dont know if my way of loving someone is right)
i cant wait to be back there. and i hope to forget you there =(
both of us are giving up.. youre giving up on me because you say i love you too much.. and you cant handle it… im giving up because you cant focus on just me yet.. you do the things that you like but you dont know it would hurt me..
you got in an accident.. i know even if your family dont tell me, im the one their blaming..they say you hate losing me but i cant feel that anymore.. i asked you several times already, “do you still love me?” you said you didnt know.. that hurts you know.. god knows how i have been trying so hard to save our relationship.. but i guess it all ends now..ill still love you like i always do, i wont be able to forget about you.. but ive got to move on.. some day ill be happy..
ne, nakanaide yo.. onegai. mou kokoro ga itai kara..demo gaman dekinakute naichau. daisuki dayo anata.. nande konna koto sunno? zurui yo..
how could you hurt me this much? am i not loving you enough? or am i just loving you too much? i did everything that pleases you. including deleting my friends in friendster and also in my phone book! how could you be so self centered? so selfish?
i tried my best to be the best girlfriend you’ve had so far. i did, i really did. i loved you with my whole heart. i even loved your family. what went wrong? am i not enough? am i hard to be with? does staying with me make you feel burdened? i hope i haven’t made you feel that way. cause it would hurt so much if i knew that i only made you suffer for 1 year and 1 month.
you’ve made me happy everytime i was with you. but that was before.
right now, what we do every day is fight. over stupid things. i dont think we can ever make up for this anymore. ive had enough. maybe you’ve also had enough.. i always told you, that i’d never ever give up on you.. but this is hurting me so much that i cant bear it anymore.
im so sorry. and thank you for all those wonderful memories.
