the sun’s already shining brightly but im still wide awake. this dillema has been on for quite sometime now.. for the past few days, im having a really hard time falling asleep at nights and when its already morning or afternoons i feel sleepy. its like my body clock has been broken. BIGTIME!
without nothing to do and no one to talk to, who wouldn’t go crazy with this kind of boring lifestyle that i have?? (0_o) everybody thinks im always busy though they dont know that im stuck here with my laptop and cigarettes to bear with me the whole day. m(_ _)m thats mostly the reason why im always out of my house, and in their house (chi’s house) XD
their house, compared to mine is what you can call a “home”. it consists of all the family members, and lively/cheerful neighbors.
life is just great if you really know how to appreciate things.. im beggining to learn more about love each day that passes by, it seems all the things around me are just plainly good =) i have been trying to change myself for the better not just to please him but to please myself aswell. (*^U^)v
its kinda scary though cause i feel that my old way of loving is coming back (the one that LOVES TOO MUCH) i actually told him about my dilemma and he just shruged it off saying i dont feel nasasakal anyway, i love you. XD
i constantly want to keep control of how much i give him my love but it seems useless cause there are just so much love within me, its overwhelming and overflowing in fact. =) i like the feeling but i cant help but wonder how long is this gonna be until another fight comes up? oh well better not ruin the night for me now…(^_^;)==3
http://sk8maiko.blog.friendster.com/ there its just showed up =) that blog would be more detailed and more up-to-date than this blog because its my private profile (*^U^)v
i have been updating my blog on my other account, for quite sometime today..
seems that friendster is not working properly cause everytime i try to write here, my other blog shows up.. (-_-) and just a while ago i tried to see if my other blog worked, turns out its not there anymore..its like it went into a black hole or something.. (@_@) can’t find it anymore.. but i swear to god i really saved my entries.. chikusho.. mata kaku no kayo? anyway, mata kaze hichatta yo.. koe ga hen, hanamizu ga ooi.. lol..
and about the snatching thing,,my mum was cool about it.. she said she was just glad im okay.. =)
i miss my *chi* (T^T)
